@#%%@$%

Seems it's true after all;


I can't function in a healthy relationship.





except with a girl who's as unstable as fuck and won't even talk to me..awesome

Fading away...

Andrew Bird- Sigh Master


The song which ran through my head at 5 am the 18th of may 2009 when I had to sleep a night on a horribly uncomfortable bench at the London Gatwick airport.

The song which slowly woke me up that day,ending a weird weekend of so much things all leading to one; giving me that strange vibe of experience.

Today,tonight I should say, I listened to it again, by accident even, and again it hit me; this summer, that weekend in may..life may not always work out the way you want it, it may seem an endless struggle towards goals you're never going to reach on your own anyway, but the one thing you can do is gain experience and grow.

I grew up a little when I went to Brighton for the second time.

I grew up a little when I spent this summer without any plans or responsibility and with a shitload of worries about stuff I couldn't do anything about anyway.

.. I just hope it was enough.




Maybe I'd just want a bit more slow fading violins and Andrew humming slowly right between there while the sun comes up and my mind finally stops racing between worries,fears and doubts...



It's time to grow the fuck up.